Who is my true love??

it was during my mid adolescent years... i was attracted to this boy.. i just ignored this and thought it would just be the teenage girl's infatuation.. as years passed my love towards him grew stronger that i thought it would be better i tell him... but a girl proposing to a guy.. i could hardly imagine dat.. i kept it a secret... but tried to be closer to him.. at times i also felt he loved me... but those all where jzt my imaginations.. he never proposed to me.. nd i went off to college where i met many guys.. nd many proposed to me.. but i couldn't take him off my mind until one guy came into my life... who was less handsome less educated nd even less talented than the boy i loved... but what i never got from this first boy i got from this boy LOVE... i felt something i tried to give someone else those last years.. but my feelings towards the first guy was still stronger.. nd there weren't days i spent without remembering him.. who is my true love... i still dont know it yet... and i leave dat to the readers to decide... who is my true love... is it the boy i loved??? or is it the one who gave me his love ???